A poem for when the depersonalization comes
Loose loose loose/
Away my soul drifts/
Away from the world/
In a new reality/
Blurry, foggy, headache, groggy/
Hurting, aching/
Seething, dissolving/
Into space with the stardust/
Fighting for self love/
If I can’t love myself who will love me?/
Will the God above me?/
Why have you forsaken me?/ Is it because I have forsaken you?/
Your wrath has destroyed my faith/
The pastor says your love is endless/
But you’ve beaten me senseless/
I clench my jaw thinking of you/
I’m angry at you/
Because I’m hurt/
Am I not your child too?/
Lost and afraid/
Living with no purpose is like living with no soul/
Living like a zombie with no heart/
Living like you’re always in the dark/
It’s a twisted joke/
But I somehow still have hope/
People have come back from less/
I’m waiting on my redemption/
Recovery is my obsession/
I understand this is a test/